The Wolfhound

I’d a dream we traveled out to a local fall event and my eye was immediately drawn to a peculiar petting zoo. There was an average woman in distinct employee garb and to her left was a male lion. Mane swaying in the breeze, deep orange and tan fur only a foot or so away from the edge. You kept trying to reach your fingers across the fence to pet him as I looked into his eyes,

Odd. They would never put a lion in a cattle pen.

It wasn’t long before the woman noticed us, arms stretched out across the fence. She lassoed him, gently so, but it still broke my gaze. She shook her head in warning and let an assortment of sheep out next. It was clear what she deemed her property.

‘Sorry about that, it’s dangerous to pet the lion. Rescues and all.’

You started up a careless conversation, loud voice boisterously ringing in my ears. I felt sour, so I ignored her as a whole. She seemed to take to your conversation, but I drifted back off towards the building they’d walked him into. So slow, so languid, so tamed was his walk. Like a drunken misery, or a stumble into sedation. His composure seemed empty, as if there was no roar brewing in his belly anymore.

I almost turned around and walked the other way, off to find a drink or something to ease the familiar aching that was developing in my brain. Then out came the wolfhound.

He followed her shadow to the fence lining but no one seemed to pay any mind to him.
Deep shoulders stalking forward, head leaning down and bright yellow eyes glancing up. You two were busy conversing about the seasonal events and where the best location to get a good bite to eat was.

He had a tortoiseshell coating, deep black mingling with ebony and hints of auburn. It reminded me of the withered maple leaves or caramel.

He came to my post by the fence and sat down slowly. I looked towards the both of you to see if the attendant was paying any attention, she was not. I stuck my hand through the opening and got a good grasp of his fur. Wiry, lengthy and wild, but smooth. He did not draw back from my touch.

At first I merely gave him a nuzzle behind the ears, but those brooding eyes kept locking onto mine. I’d really no choice. I crouched down, he rolled onto his back almost instantaneously. He kept his gaze locked on mine, large paws encircled around my forearm. I couldn’t decipher what it was he wanted.

You were sitting at a table, watching a rather boring show that gathered the crowds of humanity like the sheep in the pen, while I was weaving through the herds on the outskirts of dusk with the wolfhound cradled in my arms.

He was heavy, but not heavy enough for me to lag. I remember my grip was like iron. I wasn’t going to let anyone else touch him. I wasn’t even sure of where I was taking him, all I knew is I couldn’t let him go. Not now, at least.

I don’t remember feeling panicked, as most would, but I couldn’t remember my purpose for being in this predicament. Nor where I was or how I’d ended here. I knew they’d either think I stole him, which I wasn’t entirely sure if I had or just planned to. Or they’d thank me for finding him after he ran off towards whatever it was he’d chased.

I kept trying to mull through my options. I could take him home with me, I could save him from this brutish lifestyle. But what if he belonged with the sheep? Someone had to herd them, right? His eyes were like looking into the moon, and it was getting darker by the minute.

I’d find a way to spin it either way but I settled on finding you, first.

I never found our purpose, me and the wolfhound, but I assume that was half of the point. Perhaps it was just to get out of the confines of the fence. Perhaps he saw another of his kind and no longer wanted to herd the sheep. Perhaps I didn’t, either.

He’d followed me.

That’s what had happened. I was certain now, the recollection clear as the path before me. He’d followed me and I’d turned around and felt a shiver hit my spine.

He never wriggled or writhed from my grasp. He laid still as baggage, the longer I held on, the easier he was to carry. Passerby’s would smile and gawk, they were faceless to me but I could hear the fluctuations in their tones, and I’d smile back but I wouldn’t meet their eyes. I wouldn’t decipher their features. This trek would stop for nothing and no one.

It wasn’t long before I rounded the corner to the fence line. The array of familiar tables sprawled out, the crowd had dwindled but the show had continued on in repeat.

Two more steps was all it took, to round the corner, my sight now visible beyond the trees masking the seat you’d chosen in the far back corner.

You were gone.

I set him down within the confines of the fence and told myself it was only momentarily, and he stood stark still, watching me with hooded recollection.

I called you, I believe, or perhaps I only heard the long, lost echo of your voice. I’d assumed to hear a bit of concern, or perhaps just confusion.

‘I went home,’ you muttered on the static end of the realm.

‘You didn’t bother to look for me?’

‘Why would I? You’re always wandering off.’

‘It was the hound. He followed me, I couldn’t just leave him out there.’

I’d no idea why I was trying to validate the chain of events to you, but perhaps I was just trying to make sense of the whole ordeal myself.

The line went silent for a moment.


‘_______, what are you talking about?’

‘The hound! For god’s sake the hound, the giant looming guy in the cattle pen? With the sheep? You didn’t see him?’

‘No… There was never a hound.’

I looked back towards the fence, a breath of night chill whistled through a now empty terrain. I peered into the darkness but there was no sight of the moon, nor the hound.

I stood there for a while, in the stark night, and I think I knew in that moment why wolves howl.

– B.


Morning drifts through the 
branches like golden sand
weaves through nimble 

This fleeting warmth that 
seems to coarse through in
careful vibrations only when
I’m awake.

A momentary shadow dims
my peripheral, the clever caw
of an acquaintance in balance
and tranquility. 

The crow perches on the 
highest branch, charcoal eyes
and ashen feathers poised 
in contrast. 

We stare for an eternities worth,
in stark silence of the world’s
most hidden brilliance, and I 

Not on the meaning, not on any
perceived omen, but on what
could be ruling his existential
plain as well. 

I wonder if he’s any idea how
necessary his presence is to the
light, or if he sunbathes in the
fool’s spectrum. 

The sun does not fear him no
more than he understands it,
but they exist harmoniously,

He tilts his head, as I do mine,
I realize he likely comprehends
this far better than any of us
could ever hope. 

And when I blink, he has gone.

– B. 


Silent are the weeping willows 
this time of year,
Bending to the weight of rainfall 
or hooded ornaments. 
Branches splintering off into 
dissolutions of a holiday,
The party goes on, I’m sure 
that’s what they’ll all say. 

Though a chair is left empty at 
the setting this year,
A carcass carved through by the
wings and gutted up
the belly of an indulgent beast. 
They spread the greed like butter,
while I mull over wine. 

A hollow setting masques a fair 
weather merriment,
A soiled bride and a groom whom 
finds solace in the mirror. 
Debauchery can eventually become 
truth when
you glance off into the void and allow 
its whispers to warp reality. 

But awareness has always shaken my
shoulders or spat in my face. 
I stare at a fire crackling in the depths 
of an hour too dark,
Swiping the phlegm and postulated 
insincerity from my face. 
And I know that I may be alone, but I 
am less lonely than I am
At the table of forlorn regrets, death 
and unfamilial-arity. 

– B. 


I have never heard the 
rap-tap-tapping on my 
chamber door, whether it 
be from a raven or likewise,

I have never hidden the raised
tissue whitened in the hailing
of all my battles forlorn,
or my inability to feel much 
without the taste of bait and lure. 

Luna refused to mother
the shepherds whore,
though a disposition like 
mine has proven difficult
to ignore, perhaps only to

She is not a mother,
I am not a mother.

She is but a guide and I am 
buying into the excess time 
I have wretchedly torn from 
Pandora’s own hands, the 
femme fatal’s box of wisdom 
for all who sneer and plan. 

Exposing a pale neck to the 
reality of your own twisted
perils tends to soothe the void 
come a blistering winter,
or the night he was deployed. 

I am not a mother,
but she isn’t either.

A divine retribution, if you will. 
In silence of my screaming lambs,
I linger, between the confines
of those chamber doors. 

I hear everything, every whisper,
every echo of a pin hit the floor,
but never the rapping or tapping 
of my long lost Lenore. 

– B. 


A venus fly trap can only
consume a prey of its size. 

You have quickly learned
that I was merely a finger 
that allowed you to hold
on longer than planned. 

There was never any 
sustenance you could pull
from my nitrogen. 

– B. 


I want to travel where no one
has gone before and survived;
Beyond the brink of death,
where no grandfather clock
could strike a quarter till. 

I want to pass the rivers of soul,
past the never ending hunger of life,
the starvation of hope. 

I want to travel to the most hidden
depths of your mind, figure you out,
put the pieces of the puzzle together. 

Where did the time go? 
I’m missing at least six pieces
beneath the pines in my home town. 
And you are too content to leave me
here to die. 



I am bored stiff as a 
placement of bone on
careful wiring at the 
museum crime scene. 

This is what happens 
when rigor-mortis sets 
and my daydreams fall
to atrophy. 

Veins will shrivel into
tightly wound coils
that no amount of
preservative could

Spindly fingers freeze
into permanent claws,
heart bathing in a jar
of formaldehyde. 

– B.